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有惊无险的过了一个月。
we had been together for one month.
though it is not a long time, but for me it is quite an achievement.
this is not to say i am a whore and changes my partner frequently.
but just that i am always quite jinx in relationship matters.
my relationship never seems to survive past the one month benchmark, and the only time it did was the first one, which doesnt constitute, because we broke up and patch back again.
that is why it manage to survive.
i am feeling insecure. i dont know why.
there seems to be a nagging feeling that something will occur or happen and my happiness will be short-lived.
am i a worrysome freak or wad?
i really want this to last.！
okay. i think i am talking gibberish.

PS: he asked me why i like him. and i told him i dont have a reason. i cant really pin point a reason.
but all i know and feel that he is really good to me.
and i feel comfortable around him. i can be myself.
is it a reason? i dont know.
他对我真的很好。很疼我。那是重点。不是吗？

my virginal trip to KL

my first time to KL. on budget airline.
mr. bf had wanted to take a coach but i refused.
there was no way i was going to spend 4 hours on the coach doing nothing.
and we decide to fly.
we touched down at KL around 2300 and Jimmy came to fetch us.
i had managed to persuade him to come pick us at the airport.
the ride from the KL LCCT to KL main city was a long ride. it took us forever.
finally we managed to reach the hotel, where we checked in and dumped our bags before heading out to grab some bite.
we were starving. we din managed to eat anything while at the airport.
it was yet another ride to the hill top for some food.
the view was splendid, food was okay but the service was horrors.
one of the orders decided not to appear and we had to cancel it.
thereafter, we went back to the hotel to catch some eye winks.
my initial plans were to wake up for breakfast in the hotel and also for dim sum.
but sleepy head me slept till about 11am, by that time the hotel breakfast hours were over and was too late for dim sum.
mr. bf was happily sleeping away. and he had wanted to wake up at 9ish for gym. if i hadnt went to disturb him, he would be still snoring away on the bed. so much for wanting to wake up early.
brunch was at crystal jade in a nearby mall and did some shopping.
then we proceed to The Pavilion, one of the huge arse mall in KL.
it was a huge mall alright, and there were plenty of shops.
i managed to get a new sweater from adidas, while Mr. BF got a ton load of stuff from the mall.
we decided to take a rest at a hongkong cafe, and there was wireless in the cafe, i managed to tweet and i chanced upon Justin was in KL too.
i managed to persuade him to come join us at Pavilion, which he took forever to come over.
finally he arrived and we went hunting for coach tickets for justin. he had forgotten to pre-book his tickets back to sgp.
along the way, it started to pour like mad. and the traffic was horrifying. thank god we had jimmy who drives and was able to bring us around. the public transport system was terrible, which i was going to find out the next day.
we managed to secure tickets for justin and his friend at some place. then, we adjoined for dinner.
it was a filling dinner, with loads of food. after dinner, we send justin back to his hotel while we hang out at some IT mall, which was like Sim Lim Square in sgp.

escape from work

i took a few days of leave from work.
from last wed (28.10.2009) to yesterday ( 02.11.2009)
it was a good break from the work, which was getting crappy.
on wed, i managed to laze around the house. which was a luxury.
for thurs, i went to the jurong bird park with my fellow colleagues, urica & doresa.
we had a field day exploring the park & snapping pictures of all kinds of birds.
and mozzies love me. i had countless bites.
on fri, i packed my bags for my KL trip and met up with nick in town.
we had tea at coffee club, catching up on our lives and gossiping about others.
then i accompanied him to wait for his date before i took a train to meet my bf.
the bf came to pick me up at aljunied and we cabbed to the airport.
we did some shopping at the airport before boarding the plane to KL.
it was my first time on a budget airline ( Air Asia) and also a first to KL.
i am such a country bumpkin eh.
it was a nice break away from sgp and i enjoyed myself at KL, with the company of Jimmy, mr. bf and justin.
mr bf and i came back on sunday and i came home on monday morning.
and i spent the day catching up on sleep.
now, i am getting ready to start work at 1500 later.
gosh.. time flies when one is on break and away from work.

gathering of sorts.

it was nice to be able to meet up with eileen & amira for dinner.
along with juv, urica and another colleague.
ever since we ended training and svc, we haven met up.
it was a wonderful feeling to be able to see each other and catch up.
i wonder how is the rest of the class, besides the gang that is at my side.
i hope everything had been good for them. maybe we should plan a gathering of sorts, but i think it could be mean feat. we are all in different cluster. different shift timing and whats not.
we had dinner at aston specialities, which was my first.
i had seen the queue whenever i passes by the restaurant.
the food was passable, and the pricing is affordable too.
we had a nice time catching up. the main topic for the night was some cso from urica team, who is a terror. and we had a field time talking about her.
the night ended at quite an early time, as some of them had to work tomorrow.
as for me, i am going on leave.
time to relax and rot.
and look forward to my trip with bf.

worry.

i hate to feel this way.
the insecurity and instability.
maybe i am a worry freak.
things in the future, i cant do much to change.
but somehow i still wish to be in control.
i know it is impossible to have any control of future events, yet i wish i have some control.
or at the very least, able to exercise some influence to how the events would turn out.
currently the bf is in the same cluster and workplace with me. we can meet up and stuff.
for this period, he is on training, which means normal working hours of 0900-1800, and off on weekends.
as for me, i am on the shift roster. and for this period, i had managed to swap shift, and doing the mid morning/ early morning shift. which means i am able to meet up with him.
and on weekends, i can stay over.

joanne birthday celebration 2009.

we got together to celebrate joanne’s birthday.
weili couldnt join in as she had to mugged for her paper on monday.
so it was me, bf, meiqing, joanne and her other half.
we went ktv buffet dinner at kbox cineleisure.
the food was so so. and limited variety.
we had loads of fun singing. 4 hours of merry making.
meiqing went to get a cake, and we had a cake cutting ceremony.
and presented jo with her birthday gift, vouchers from capita-mall and kinnokuniya book store.
it was a nice get together, which took forever to arrange.
since the foursome of us are working, with different timing and stuff.
back then, it was meiqing and weili who had to slog their arse off with work, while me and jo were the carefree students.
but now, we are working, with me and jo doing shift work. thus it was quite troublesome to find a day where everyone is available.
somehow, we manged to do so. and i hope in the near future, we would still be able to do so.
i thank god for having them as friends, though i dont express it much.
they keep me sane, in various ways and situations.
they are like the first group i run to whenever i have anything, be it important or not.
they play a large part of my life. and i heart them.
i hope we will be friends till we are old. and stay together in the same old folks home should the situation arise.

mini storm

we had a mini cold war.
for a few hours.
because i was annoyed with him not picking my calls.
twice.
i called after he text me, and he also din pick up.
he said he kept his phone in his bag and din heard it ring.
i ignored him and give him black face.
i was having my tantrums.
he was at a loss. of what to do.
and he sucks at coaxing.
we are staring at each other and saying nothing.
the mood was crappy.
somehow we managed to talk and made up before our movie.
wells.
he asked me if he was a bad bf.
he wasnt a bad bf. in fact he is a wonderful one.
just that i hate it that he likes to keep his feelings & thoughts to himself, and not telling/ sharing with me.
i cant seem to guess his thoughts, and had to interrogate him to know.
as for me.i dont hide my feelings that well. i am like a open book.
i hope he will share with me his thoughts and feelings.
and together work towards our future.
i cant say we will last forever, but while it last, i hope we can make wonderful memories.

count down.

we are moving towards one month.
hope it will last beyond that.
we are going holidays next week. a short trip to KL.
and then planning for another one next year, in February.
most probably we are heading to Taiwan.
that means i need to save up.
that is a mean feat, considering how much a spendthrift i am.
so keep me in your prayers. that i can save up for my taiwan trip.
i will try to update more.
because i am such a lazy bum bum.

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yup.
yours truly here is attached.
but not with its fair share of drama.
especially last night.
wells. i had popped over to stay the night with him.
and unfortunately, his dad was at home, so one can imagine the storm.
just like the recent typhoons.
with the father & son at each others throat, while i stood hidden in the shadows, watching the drama unfold itself.
seriously i felt stressed. i was the culprit that trigger it all. i felt bad.
it wasnt the first time that someone had argue with their folks over me.
the guilt.
after that, we had a talk, analyzing the situation, to see what we can do to salvage.
i told him to stop being loggerheads with his folks, and to stop avoiding them.
because it doesnt solve any issues. so i coaxed him to make peace offerings to the folks.
and i should cease to stay over, to avoid further aggravating the situation.
so yup.

i m happy being with you.
i hope it will last.